Feelin’ Fine, for now.

Before you begin to read this, I must warn you there’s really no purpose to this blog post, except for it just being more about how I’ve been feeling lately. So close now, if you’re not interested, or else it’ll simply sound like droning

Okay, anyway, deal being that I think life right now is in the pits. There’s nothing happening, nothing, no-one to entertain me, zip, zilch, zero. I just want something to happen. For example, last night I came home, and actually didn’t know what to do. I sat on my bed for a few minutes just watching music videos on the television, and I was just totally angry and bored out of my head.

There’s a few things that I think could be the reason why I’ve been feeling this way recently though. It’s probably because I haven’t had a relationship in so long, I just miss the connection you have with someone that’s close to you in that way, or maybe it’s something totally different, such as the fact I have all of my AS Level exams approaching rather rapidly.

Thing is, I just can’t bear it. I’m one that likes to live fast, and there simply needs to be something happening, or I’ll just die a little, a lot, inside. Earlier on today I was thinking to myself how awful it would be if life just remained like this throughout the rest of my years. What if, I’ll always live with my stupid family, what if I’m always just a worker at McDonalds, what if I can’t get anyone to love me? This is why I’ve chosen to take a stand, just because of that thought.

I am going to revise like hell, to get the grades I want from my AS levels, next year I’m going to do loads of things that’ll add to my experience for my CV. I can’t, simply can’t get by, working at McDonalds for the rest of my life. I don’t even think I’m going to want to work there for another year, if I’m going to be entirely honest, it’s an actual shithole.

Meh, dedication, it’s not cool, but then again, screw you all I’m cool.